Long time no blog

I have been wanting to blog for days ... weeks even. But, then I was too lazy to log in. Gosh, we knew I was a procrastinator, but procrastinating from logging into a website. what a loser!

We have friends visiting for the week and I'm just so damned happy. I was telling DH last night that these are the friends that I absolutely am myself with. there is no one else in the world that I am more comfortable than these friends. I'm so lucky and happy to have them here. Tonight we were going to into go to Universal but we decided to blow it off. They are here having fun. Tomorrow we go to Disney World.

My mood has been greatly improved lately. I'm hoping things continue in this positive attitude because I much prefer being happy than being depressed. I've even been cleaning my house! Very very special ;) Now, to organize my old office and make it more visitor friendly, since I'm not using it as an office anymore.

I was doing very well on my diet over the last two weeks. I had lost 3 pounds. This was making me very happy. My friend is in town now and she has been cooking dinner for us all this week. So much for my diet. the good news is that I managed to shrink my stomach a bit because now I can't eat as much as I used to. Very proud of myself for accomplishing this goal. After my friends leave I'll hop back on the diet train again.

I have been so caught up on my feeds since I got back from vacation. I'm very excited about it! I'm managing to read a few feeds throughout the day so this is helping in keeping up and being up to date with current events. This is so important to me because knowing what's going on on the world is the only way to have decent conversations with people!

Our weather has been as crappy as the rest of the country. Hot hot hot! so hot that we are doing everything we can to avoid the parks during the daytime. Thank goodness Disney and Universal are open late in the summer. I would *not* want to go in this heat. I can't wait til fall!

I really need to do a better job of blogging. I also learned that I probably need to put in a few more details in my blog. When I was reading back on the old blogs, I couldn't even remember what the heck I was talking about because there was not enough details. And with my bad memory ... well who knows what the heck I was thinking! I hope when I read this blog in 6 months I know what the heck I was talking about!

Reeling

I'm still reeling about how I was treated on my vacation.  I mean, overall, it wasn't as horrible as it started out to be.  Our flight was late, which obviously was completely out of my control.  Yet, the response I received to my text notifying the family that we were late was so incredibly rude.  I'm really sick of the lack of respect I've been shown. Sure, I'm not that great of a person, but does that mean I can be so incredibly disrespected? Of course, karma ended up working itself out, because when I got in the car and rolled the seat back, I apparently rolled it back on a  foot.  I had to giggle to myself. I'm still working out my epiphany that I had because of this rude person.  I'm going to figure it out, but no matter how stupid I may be, I don't think anything I do deserves being treated badly.  if you have a problem with me, tell me.  Let me learn from my mistakes.  There's nothing I want more in this world than to be a better person.  But, I'm not going to be a better person if I'm constantly demeaned, disrespected and put down.  

I'm hungry.  It's 9:30 and my stomach is growling.  I should go to bed.  this is my punishment for sticking to my new died for the day.  LOL  Ok, so maybe not punishment.  Next week when my pants are a little less tight it will all have been worth it.  I'm hungry though.  Can you hear my stomach? 

I'm getting caught up at work.  2 days vacation and then 2 days without the boss to interrupt and distract me.  mmmmmmmmm how long can this last?

I'm going to bed before I get any hungrier ...

Thoughts upon thoughts

I am so frustrated with my lack of blogging. My New Year's resolution was to blog every day and remember the positive thoughts that come from my MissRable self. On the one hand, it was a way for me to see if I am truly as negative and MissRable as I think I am. Being able to read what my thoughts were a few days ago was a good way to answer what I needed to know ... am I really that negative? I was doing really well at the beginning of the year. Very positive and very happy. So I thought, I must be wrong ... I'm not really that negative. Of course, a new job can skew the mind. Lots of opportunities and new things which are always exciting. So, of course, there was a lot of positivity. But, once the newness wore off, what I found was this sad depressed unhappy person. I don't like me much. I'm way too negative, and more importantly, I remember more of the negative things in my life. Because I was trying to only use this blog for good, I stopped blogging when the depression hit. But, now I'm frustrated with myself that I let myself down with this blog, and more importantly, that I let the depression stop me from blogging. It's hard, when you are depressed, to think of something worth writing that is worth reading for my friends and family that read this blog. So, I guess I should apologize in advance for sucky reading. Hopefully, there will occasionally be some good reading too.

I got up this morning a little early, which is was good. after being off a for a few days, I needed the extra time in the office to review emails and things that came in while I was out. And I got a special welcome back.... my boss was apparently sick so she didn't come in today. Whew! No interruptions, no worries. I got a lot done. I also got a huge compliment from one of the Partners, too. I know that if I decide to leave my job, I'm wanted in other areas in the firm. Yup, there's my positive thought for the day. It's actually huge to me. I needed it. I've become so negative and MissRable, and yet today I had no reason to be sad. This may be one of the reasons that I'm blogging today. I'm not overwhelmed in misery.

My girlfriend and I decided to diet for the rest of the week. I was telling her that my lunchtimes with her are the biggest downfall to my dieting because I can't imagine missing on my lunchtime meals and time with them. Well, she took that obstacle away from me today. I'm so grateful because I have gained a lot of weight since January and things aren't getting better. I've got to do something!! So, starting tomorrow, new lunch plans. I know I've said it before, but this time it's for real because I have a buddy doing this with me. I'll keep you posted.

I guess I've missed blogging, because I sure typed a lot tonight! Now I'm going to spend time with my wonderful husband.